I am a manipulator, and the person I manipulate most is me.
I love doing hard things. I thrive off the challenge and the thrill of success when it’s all over. But getting and powering through the hard parts is all about the mind games, especially when it comes to eating.
Let’s get real: I’m on day three of another Whole30 right now and I’m so hungry I could stab you in the face. That’s pretty rude since I might not even know you, huh?
Four eggs for breakfast scrambled with what felt like a ton of fresh spinach and two giant cups of coffee mixed with full fat coconut milk and …. yup. Starving. This happens to me for the first week of every Whole30 I do (I’ve done two full 30 days successfully and four or five where it’s been more like a Whole20 thanks to circumstances outside my control like work travel) as I figure out exactly what it means to feed myself enough real food to not be hangry (hungry + angry) all the time. I imagine this is true of every kind of eating challenge.
And it’s not just the first-week hunger of Whole30 that puts me at risk of hurting someone. There’s the carb flu, the sugar detox, the kill all the things stage, the dreams about ritz crackers (seriously what voodoo magic is at play that makes them sooooooo buttery and delicious?!) and that “mama needs a beer” feeling that happens at about 5 p.m. on any given Friday.
Willpower alone is not enough for this. The only way I make it through an eating challenge is by sheer trickery and mind games.